♥ Friday, December 12, 12/12/2008
Had a conversation with sam earlier, and she said something which made me stop and think. She said that in love, like it or not hurt is inevitable. Many times we find ourselves obsessing over who we're hurting if we do this; whether it's fair to yourself if you do that... if you think for yourself you're selfish, but if you think for others, you will be persuaded at some point to "Think for yourself".
Some people might hold the viewpoint that where so called "true love" is concerned, self does not come into the picture because you wouldn't want to hurt your significant other but they are ignoring the fact that conflicts (not in the sense of quarrels but in the sense from many small to bigger things.) yr expectations, punctuality etc.. are an integral part of everyday life, but those having affair, totally ought to be shot.
Also, i'm not talking just about a single romantic relationship between 2 persons. It is a fact that you cannot be romantically involved with everyone because everyone will get hurt, and it is also because you cannot be romantically involved with everyone that someone will eventually be let down/get hurt whether it was your intention or not.
If it's impossible to make sure nobody gets hurt at all even yourself, maybe the only way is to minimise that pain once one foresees even the minutest possibility. However, given the power of human will sometimes even these efforts might be rendered toothless. Even if this solution works, the amount of time you invest to prevent hurting people 'hurts' you indirectly because of the sheer effort it entails that you could have put into developing your own potential.
Conclusion? SOMEONE will get hurt whatever it is. which is as good as no conclusion.
/1:35 pm
♥ Thursday, December 11, 12/11/2008
eh.. quite lazy to type how much fun i had this two days, so i shall let the pics do the talking(: this week is a camwhoring week man. anw,
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE KOH!!! (:
10 december
11boys, 1girl outing(:
russell so cute here.
chek lim,hiang leong
hiang leong 
johnson(:
*chek lim, thanks for saying something so sweet to me(: whether you mean it or not, i appreciated it soooooo much. heh.
at paris ris park, live band pub with the girls.
rach,desi,sharon,maine 
maine
my new trademark HAHA
desiree
drop yr stuff?
9 december
maine
too full.
HAHA 
darlie toothpaste snap shot.
onto even more mundane things. weather's been quite predictable these days. there're always storms at 3pm thereabouts every day. i love wet days, who don love it right? haha routine and predictability is charming sometimes i guess. cos i can plan my day way before. i don't know what i'm rambling about, i just need to escape from being hurt. TOO random. haha
it's yet another one of those nights where i plan to sleep early completely backfires on me. now, i'm incredibly tired. my eyes are shutting but my brain refused to rest. resistance is futile, so i drifted in and out of my room to get water, i returned each time trying to trick my brain into slumber, without success (obviously). frustrated, i gave up and sat out in the living room. ARG.
i keep on looking.
and i know i shouldn’t.
but i can’t help it.
it just, happens.
i know it’s nothing real.
but i still look.
hais.
♥ Tuesday, December 9, 12/09/2008
yster i woke up early to meet genesia, meiting and huilee in town. we had pasta for lunch den we sat through K Happy. me and gen tried to sing mariah carey, byebye and leona lewis, bleeding love.. we just couldnt stop laughing at ourselves. how silly. totally couldnt catch up with the line. i love singing duet with LIM MEI TING, cos her voice damn ZHAI lo. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. super hilarious la. den we dined at ding tai fung. gosh. i love the food there. 5 stars. heh. it was really fantastic to see them!(:
i met up with my dear ben and bryan for a chill out session at Cafe Iguana. i tell you, is a killer. i died. so was ben and bryan haha. somemore, someone drove. their choices of drinks is WOWW.. you probably will take a million years to decide. we ordered their house margarita, sour shot, ¡muy picante(shot). OHMYGOSH. it was so freaking spicy! my stomach churned and burned, while tears escaped from behind the lids of my eyes, screaming it’s way out into the atmosphere, as though my insides were too fired up to keep anything moist. my throat died. my brain stopped for a moment. this is my last time. i will never want to try this again. not unless i want to throw myself into that fiery pit of habanero chiles in tequila.
my fav people(: 
huilee,meiting
meiting,genesia
wheres shuzhen?
♥ Sunday, December 7, 12/07/2008
wento ikea with mum and sis yster. ohmygosh. damn crowded. is like as tho all items is FOC. haha. anw, the chicken wing at the so called resturant was really GOOD. very juicy, not oily, cheap. definitely worth eating. go and try if u're there. (:
at night, i met ben and bryan at holland v for dinner. it's always shocking how comfortable/happy/stress free i can be just being with the two of them. i guess 5 years of friendship counts for something!(: i arrived earlier than expected and expectedly, i was flustering over the fact that in fact, i would be the one to keep the other waiting, but.. actually i was early. 40 mins early in fact! haha. after dinner we went over to marina for bowling. man.. the sound of pins falling and bowling balls whirring by, brings back memories and a real sweet feeling. and i rem someone fell down hard right after the foul line. HAHAHAHA. but i cant rem who. so sad. LIM MEI TING, isit you? haha
outside powerhouse.
yes shereen, i'm wearing a helmet. hahaha
maple,kit,ru hui the brave girl(:
shereen name her ru hua. so rude. but funny la. haha
my crap hair. 
alicia, hotness in tis pic. 
retro girl on the right. haha
shereen,alicia(:
wento powerhouse on fri and i totally hate it. the crowd was so... for lack of a better word, 'off'. there were zero familiar faces, house music somemore and because of that, the feel was all off. there were "don club too often" crowd, "naive looking" crowd, 'uncles aunties' crowd and of course the 'spew over from phuture' crowd. so we went over to butter factory. ok, don talk abt it. anw, was really fun just being with the girls. (: (:
goodnight all(:
