ZETENG
30 June, AUT, Sport Science
WAKEBOARDING.ilove

coconut_zeteng@hotmail.com



"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."

9/7/08 - 9/14/08
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9/21/08 - 9/28/08
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11/23/08 - 11/30/08
11/30/08 - 12/7/08
12/7/08 - 12/14/08
12/14/08 - 12/21/08
12/21/08 - 12/28/08


yanx mummy
siao mei
amanda
valeria
balpreet
mich
hui lee
sharon cheong
desiree lim
shereen lau
moolicious
terrance quah
vanessa ng
jamie lew
alredo
gio


background: lyricaltragedy

I did some reflection today.


There was a time when close friends drifted from me due to my busy schedule, TRNG! And I felt like I was stranded.... and I hated it.

There was a time when I loved someone, that I was sad that I had actually fallen in deep and all that you left me with, was doubts... and I hated it.

There was a time when people started going places, and i didnt.... and I hated it.


I always living in my own fantasy of wad if.. so many wad if. I always have those hallucinations.. how beautiful. Anw, I guess there are many things that I don like to change, and yet, the need for change is ineluctable. The changes make me stronger as an individual




to my family and mrs tioh(coach). you are the people who have molded me. you are the ones who have always been there, guiding me, and making me who i am. Although i always make mistakes again and again but you guys never fail to give up on me. zeteng is not zeteng without you guys. well, there wouldn’t be enough space for me to go on and on about how i feel about you all, so i shall cease with a simple, yet heartfelt, i love you. (:

the teammates. yanlin, siaomei, amanda. you guys made me realise what it means to go through those hard times tgt. the waking up early to be under the hot sun and yet got scolded w/o a reason. what it means to be disciplined, and what it means to be friends and yet enemy on track fighting for 100m. the times we fought for our rights to go for sea games. the memorable moments when we broke the record. that no matter how far apart and busy we are, i'l never forget the three of you. i hold you three close to my heart alws. (:

the best of the best. johnson. a true 24/7 frien, nv fail to listen to me nag WHOLE DAY. thank you for being supportive, tolerating my super serious, and sometimes aggressive tone. i appreciate you not arguing back even wen i'm in the wrong haha. it goes to show how gentlemanly you can be. no matter how i look at you, you don look like 21, instead 28? overgrown? haha. ok you can now ARGUE BACK! hahaha but i know you wont. and i seriously dono how the hell yr bank account got SO MUCH MONEY wen ya still studying. i cant tink of any time wen i needed you and u're not there. (: ohman, i've known you for 8 damn years. it's freaking fast how time past.. i still rem those times tgt, and i rem ever once we sneaked out of the country to malaysia for 3 days w/o letting our parents know, and our reason given was camp. YAH RIGHT. haha. we were only 15 at that time! haha. (put in small front, in case my sis read my blog. like as tho she cant enlarge haha) i love you to the max. <3

ben, bryan, mich. the three of you are just, AWESOME. we have laughed, sang, screamed, slept, gone crazy, escaped to another country, cos we'r escapist haha, and also shared with each other. i love and i definitely WILL NOT FORGET THE FORFEIT.. it was freaking crazy and i almost died for overdosing of alcohol. whacked 1 full glass of red wine in a few seconds, and it's damn bitter drinking it so fast and i tink i finished almost a bottle all by myself tt day, scary. haha. ben is one idiot wen comes to drinking, haha. ben treat me like a mother. i love you lah, my 24 yrs old boy. me and mel love you loads since you lack of love hahaha. continue to play music for me please! (: and thank you for sharing your life with me; for letting me see the weaker side of you, for trusting in me to not divulge your secrets, for allowing me to find comfort with some who understands how i feel, for being the fun-loving, outgoing, crazy person that you are. we shall continue to be supers. (:

charmaine. i thank you that you have to listen to me nag and complain abt my life tho i know you get bored and tired but you nv complain, instead you say you wanna change table): hahaha. i alws enjoy my sat night with you. you are the ULTIMATE. no words on this blog can express how important you are to me. haha you know it, and i know it. thats all that matters. OBASAN/OCHISAN!!! <3

sharon. eh, dono wad to say but sorry for me being so selfish, i’ve known you for so long, and yet just one prob and it caused us to drifted really badly. I feel extremely bad when i tink back. honestly, im just really thankful to God for sending me, you. thank you for the supper/the company to see doc/hangout and the great support in track. thank you for the lovely person that you are. <3

the kakis, huilee, shuzhen, genesia, meiting. i missed being in ite, only because of you people. and i'm so glad to have found you guys. (: really. grouping with you guys during assignments, had helped me develop my work ability. haha.. those crazy days with charmaine ashley OHMY.. the coconut bro and coconut sis? all the drawings on the table, PLAYED BADMINTON IN AND OUTSIDE CLASS EVEN WEN THERE IS TCHER , sneaking out of class to go canteen/home, one word to describe.. AMAZING!!! hahaha. and not to mention our ability to bullshit random ideas to disturbed mr fong, and two other lecturer i cant rem.. heh. (:

mel the hot babe. i seriously thank you for everything you do to make me smile even though ure not sin, but tt doesnt mean we drift, we webcam, we msg to keep in contact. thanks so much for the postcard and pressie(: i didnt know you know my full add and i was shocked to received the gifts. you nv fail to remind me that life is like a rollar coaster. yes it is, a non-stop three-sixty ride haha. i feel like hugging you now. mel you just rox. (:



oh man.. i realised ive got too many to mention.. ok.. a few more..

the gorgeouses. xiangting, huanx, fenz, tingz, val. i’d say i’m thankful for you bunch of babes who have made catching up a wonderful thing to do. i started clubbing cos of you guys haha. though we’re all going to different places (like, real far away), i know i can still count on you all for a good gathering. xiangting, i totally missed those times in year 1. (: ohman. like i see you everyday and shared everything, how beautiful it used to be. i still rem the first day of ite life. me, you and val.. trying out our new uniform.. HAHA. huanx, thank you for sharing yr love life with me and you inspired me so much. you're damn smart btw! haha.. goooooo far! (:

jamie. you rock! haha.. time passes damn fast and we msg for continuously 4 yrs w/o going out but only see you at trng. thanks for sharing with me yr secrets and let me have the chance to give you advise. <3

shereen, alicia, terrance, vanessa. i do enjoy the time spend tgt with you guys, especially clubbing. and terr definitely go crazy wen he gets drunk. i mean REALY CRAZY hahaha. shereen, thanks for sharing with me yr life. and i thank you for the support in track and nv fail to msg me wen i'm away for competitons. i do appreciated it so much. i dono why! when i tink of you, i just feel like crying but anw, thank you! i love you. (:

to aut classmates, guo pei, bernice, khai leng, dipna. i thank you for the help in projects and helping me to keep set of notes for me when i'm not in class. (:







This was an uber long shout out. actually got many many more people more i wanna thank, and oh my gosh, i dont think i’ve typed so much in an entry before. but i still consider this short, cos there are just too many things about these people to be written (: and i cant possibly do it all here or my fingers might just break. alright, i absolutely need to get some sleep soon, i should get my eyeshut now instead, lest i die of lack of sleep. haha. i'm off. goodnight.

Ne-Yo -Because Of You Piano Cover By David Sides.

He's one of the bests. His way of playing, he perfectly pushes on every key, in perfect rhythm. I like the way he knock the chair to get tempo and start to play on beat. Definitely beyond awesome.

Here's another good one..


Rihanna -Take A Bow Piano Cover By David Sides.


The second video seems so passionate and absolutely full of romance. It's enchanting, very lovely. Incredibly gifted. It just sounds so amazing, I could sit and listen to him play all day. I love all his videos. Beautiful(:

Ohmygod, he has got 40 million total views from fans around the world, and his volume 1 CD are already OUT OF ORDER. SO FAST!!! Volume 2 will be out soon!

I was disappointed. Not once, not twice, but three times.

It is rather scary knowing that these disappointments have left me fervently holding on that hope of expectation. I shared with a few others, that I would rather not have expectations whatsoever on that issue, lest I be damaged by the lack of expectation. And yet, I have failed to stand by what I want, and let myself hope.

What I absolutely could not stand was when you brought in the past just to lecture me on how I should live my life. If you knew me well enough, you would know I'm doing what I can to make my life better than it was before. And its with this incident and steer me away from all hope and expectation.

I thank you for your concern, but cant you see I'm trying? ARG

Anw, I was looking thru Upfront Models online and I saw PAUL TAN. haha. how cool

I am still awake because I drank abit too much coffee just now with Johnson and Ben at starbucks. I tot only tea will make me awake, usually i'm fine with coffee. Damn it, now im wide awake like an owl except no mice to catch. After all this while of assuming that I'm immune against the side effects of coffee, I have finally been proven otherwise. Now I pay the price of staying awake as much as I want to drift into sleep. ARG

Okay dear Ben, your braces rocks! Wahahahaha.. you know why! Finally got to see him with his freaking braces on and got to admit, he looks goOooOood!! Hahaha, even Johnson says so.



What is love?

Love is equal to poison. It slowly seeps into your body like one being unknown. It conquering your body, mind. Causing emotional upheaval."It is like everything shattered, like beads falling from a broken necklace." Good analogy. ha

Or?

Love may be sweet, like the way the honey is to the bee. Love spreads throughout your entire body. Love breaks down all defenses, bit by bit.

So what is love? Is it a negetive or a positive thing? Or is it a little of both? I think it is a little of both. Like life, love is not complete without the roller coaster ride of ups and downs.

I've got trng at 830 and now is 435):
Ok good night, im going to make another attempt at slping. Ohya,


GOOD LUCK to those who is gg to ASEAN UNIVERSITY GAMES.. All the way SIAO MEI, AMANDA and KUNYA!!!(:

someone's body damn HOT!!!! who? hmm..


2/11, Yuling's bdae
21 seems a lil scary, 20 forever? hahaha

Idiots shall always be idiots. Assholes will always be assholes and the leopard will always never change its spots. It's the same as how unpleasant memories shall always somehow seep back into the unconscious mind and affect one's emotions.

I'm feeling somewhat confused by someone. I don't know why since the coming end of this year, my life has been very unfortunate. In the way no matter how much effort I put in, something went wrong somewhere and I don't know why. I feel like I'm faltering between the crossroads of life. I feel really confused and somehow lost. It's all been going so wrong and really frustrating for me. The problem obviously lies with me and maybe not only me. But I don't know what I should work on. I just don't know where to start searching but I know it's time to overcome it.

Maybe I just hate the fact that I keep getting setbacks. I just feel that it is unfair to always get setbacks whereas other people are so privilege as to experience a pretty much smooth life. But really, would it be too much to ask to have a smooth life once in a while? I mean ONCE IN A WHILE. ARG