And you'd give anything to get what's fair, but fair ain't what you really need.

♥ Saturday, September 13, 9/13/2008

And again i make the same mistake.. TEH PENG!!! And thats why i'm blogging at this hour at 1AM, when everyone is soundly aslp. And i feel wide awake): it's worrying especially i've got class at 930am and il be out till night.. gosh.. dieeeeee

Finally this week i'm not so busy and resting more den usual, and so i'm energised.. but.. having the thought that term-end exams is nearing.. it means crisis again. Btw, i passed my anatomy practical(: thanks Ben, my treat.

Thur was such an coincidental day and i felt so bad. Judy Jie came t fetch me from sch.. Johnson came too w/o telling me.. worst still, both cars parked side by side.. they both gave me a shocked. And of cos i got on to Judy Jie's car.. for me to repay back. I met Johnson at Seng Kang and he fetched me to Paris Ris, Xing Wang for supper. I think the place is the ultimate socialisation arena with the friendly china waitress who nv fail to entertain me whenever im there and she talk non-stop(: (:

We've gone our separate ways.. our priorities have changed, we're heading our lives. As i sat in class, pondering.. i realised something. You know how at wedding dinners, everyone will think everyone will be late, so they'l be late too, and the result is that the wedding dinner always starts at least an hour after the designated time? It seems like.. is their wedding. I realised that the reason why i don't call you is that i have the idea that you are simply too busy and i don't want to be a bother to you. Hence, i don't make the effort. I guess.. if everyone thinks like me den hMm.. what a misconception.

laychi

bal,val,mich

mich

you two rock!!

amanda,jess,shafiq

feizhen,siaomei, ??

♥ Friday, September 12, 9/12/2008

And yet again i assumed):

COLLECTION(:

Years of collections.. I'm gg for a beer collection soon, but is quite hard to find in Singapore.

♥ , 9/12/2008

GOSH. I've got one damn frightful dream): ): ): ): i jumped up frm bed thinking it was real and the other hand, the silence of the night is extremely intimidating w the tv still on w/o sound. It's worst than those eating creatures chasing after you, not abt dying, not abt failing exam (touch wood), neither is those tough trngs, oh gosh.. but i cant say la k. It seemed so real w the repeated flashback scene in my mind.. err.. maybe it might happen w my unconsciousness or rather entangled thoughts.. This kind of best symbolises the type of human condition i'm at this point of time is HORRENDOUSLY FRIGHTENED. I was so freaked that I couldn't go to bed):

SATURDAY!!! It will be another aweeesome day filled w activities.. I guess will be 4.8 or 7.2km WARM UP @ mount faber in e morn for trng, wakeboarding w Johnson and his friends @ east coast, dinner w Laychi and the trackers/throwers/jumpers.. after that we head to our usual hangout place(:

♥ , 9/12/2008

Nice thai song?

Here it is...

*sorry, just wait for my current song to finish playing first.

SIAOMEI!!! Khoon khit theung Thailand? Di-chan khit theung chan khohn rak maak maak haha..

♥ , 9/12/2008

I truly enjoy their company(: (:

IT'S SCHOOL HOLIDAY!!!!!

Meet up w Ben @ national library to revise for my upcoming ANATOMY paper.. it seems like i gonna SCORE again.. ok shut up! With his help, i tink @ least i can pass?!! No other alternative): but to just REMEMBER EVERYTHING!!! Had supper w Johnson and his friends @ Jalan Kayu.. head home..

I have had academic crisis. Guess it's because of the modules i'm currently taking, out of 4, im genuinely like none): haha. Err.. actually only ANATOMY i'm suffering for. Like.. I felt the materials i'm studying, seem to be blowing things out of proportion. It seemed so.. DISTANT, i mean beside anatomy and motivation? Like who would really care abt e nutrition if u talking abt long-term right? And theres goes the reality.. I am a student. I have to study to pass my exams (YES I MUST!!!) because truly speaking, this will help me get a diploma, which will help me in getting a job, which will help me get more money, and so i can better sustain myself . Thus, no matter what, i make sure i study hard, i have to stop meeting my friends so often and slp non-stop, so i can study more. I study so much that it become a habit. I detach myself from everything else. I continue this meaningless path, just for the mere purpose of ensuring that ill be able to survive and live well. After all, in the future, i'll just be working for the sake of wage. what does wage do? It helps me get more food and shelter. Like an animal haha..

It was quite daunting, having the thought that it's coming to e end of the year, means one year older (i wish i can be twenty forever haha) and tt means i've to tink what have i been doing this whole year round.. not trying to past time. Despite the many mistakes i've made.. i've got good and memorable one too(:

♥ , 9/12/2008

Had lunch w Judy jie @ Compass. Came home, took medi, slp and there goes my sat afternoon!):

Johnson sent me tis pic, which i thought was something sweet. Thanks! you make me smile for a second(: Much appreciated.

Yster trng was sucky, felt cold inbetween trng, i mean really extremely cold. Not tt im not fit but i know il falling sick): Went for dinner w my coach @ bishan.. n suddenly the memory kicks in. IT'S MEL'S FAREWELL TODAY! I've been a really really lousy frien this few days, repeatedly forgetting the stuff i needed to do, twice in a row. I realise that nowadays i cant really articulate what is my mind. Like.. it seems really clogged up. And i have to make extra effort to remember stuff, I FEEL OLD! Rushed home, get changed, flew down. Met them @ winebar. It was a commendable/memorable outing. I finally get to see all my friends after so long. I dono how! We ended up inside e club haha.. (Ben: is mel attached?) I launches into an exclamation, WHAT??? I tot ure her BF!!! Ben 100% GONE hahaha. oOps.. im not supposed to post this up haha. Well done to myself cos i din drink @ all, clear mind.

Yet again I made a silly mistake, i drank TEH PENG last night. (I seriously need to cut down on the amt of caffeine im taking everyday). I had interrupted sleep throughout the night. My eye-bags getting more n more serious each day. I'm sleep deprived BADLY, but somehow i jus cant seems t fall aslp): The stage of exhaustion hit to MAXIMUM! My brain is stagnant): I need to live a healthy lifestyle n good daily routine NOW!

*thanks lossini for yr concern.

♥ , 9/12/2008

Tiredness, fuzzy mind. I'm awake at tis uneartly hour @ 3am. I jus cant seems t fall aslp nowadays. In such times, i tend to go into a thinking overload.. not the academic kind unfortunately. My attendance is getting low): but i seriously hate it wen it end @ 930PM! By the time i'm alr so sleepy and my brain aint functioning well. DAMN. I've been quite a horrid frien lately, backing out last minute on appointments and causing disappointments. Instead ask me out during weekends?

I saw this advertisement on tv talkin abt the 5c, and it reminds me abt what my classmate, Kirt Soon said. We came across tis chapter in motivation, n our lecture talked abt the 5c and i dono how it became 6? CAR, CASH, CREDIT CARD, CONDO, CLUB MEMERSHIP (?) The another C tt he wish to hv is COFFIN!!!! hahaha

♥ , 9/12/2008

Wakeboarding ilove

Thanks alfredo for the ride home, beside the heavy downpour, it was just great sitting on yr fast bike. (drenched totally)

Lunch w Johnson @ his house. This freaking man ordered the viva FAMILY MEAL.. portions for FOUR. yes. i know i can eat alot but you don hv t order so much till we have to stare @ each other and luff(: irresistible desire to, so we finished up ALL. You commented something and it stays in my mind e entire afternn. I think.. that was one of the sweetest and wisest things ever said by you.ha. Kunya sent me an ultra super long email, YEAH. but den again shes drowning me w all e unreadable thai characters, n i hv to spent 35475906 hrs to figure out the email. TOUGH JOB. haha. call me instead? oct14(:

I totally forgotten abt Mel's birthday celebration. How can i. (one slap) and im supposed to go for party w Vanessa Ng, hey not tt i don rem, but jus tt im tied up in this ANATOMY class which i TOTALLY LOVELOVELOVE. I seriously gonna die for the origin and insertion part. Ok good luck to me and my practical exam is in less den two weeks time. PRAY HARD. so many events coming up.. SMU, SIM catwalk competition @ zouk. Mel's farewell (winebar) which all fits in this week. gosh. IM SERIOUSLY IN NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS COUNTRY. Its getting boring.. tried new things, but noth seems to excite me):

Im expasperated by yr actions/moves. (you stunned me) can u stop being so uncertain? And now i realise i have become rather judgemental which have affected my actions and my thoughts. Now that i have place a label on people who are close to me as a certain chracterisitc which they might be.