anw, thanks sebastian, weehong, ah ben and johnson. really! in running, they never give up on me, NEVER! even when i alws complain tt i'm feeling quite lack of motivation, but they are there to remind and nag at me. especially sebastian. i really really appreciated it. (:
steer clear? or bring yourself closer? hmmm.
the closer we are to something, the more it hurts. and the more we try to move away, the more difficult it gets. i've tried time and again to constantly remember that nothing is infinite. that nothing will ever be how you want it to be, no matter how perfect it once was. that things will eventually change, and we will somehow find ourselves stranded should we choose to back away, or even to carry on. im not quite sure on how to restrain myself. to stop thinking and pull back, just so to see things from a different perspective. what others see could very well be the truth, or are we the puppets that make things seem the way they are? do we manipulate the scenario and create unrealistic conclusions that deem beneficial to our wants, or are things plainly the way they seem? hmmm.. i have a feeling you may not understand, and there are times when i dont either. i just want to stop thinking about everything.. for now.
goodnight /12:22 am