♥ Saturday, November 15, 11/15/2008
I did some reflection today.
There was a time when close friends drifted from me due to my busy schedule, TRNG! And I felt like I was stranded.... and I hated it.
There was a time when I loved someone, that I was sad that I had actually fallen in deep and all that you left me with, was doubts... and I hated it.
There was a time when people started going places, and i didnt.... and I hated it.
I always living in my own fantasy of wad if.. so many wad if. I always have those hallucinations.. how beautiful. Anw, I guess there are many things that I don like to change, and yet, the need for change is ineluctable. The changes make me stronger as an individual
to my family and mrs tioh(coach). you are the people who have molded me. you are the ones who have always been there, guiding me, and making me who i am. Although i always make mistakes again and again but you guys never fail to give up on me. zeteng is not zeteng without you guys. well, there wouldn’t be enough space for me to go on and on about how i feel about you all, so i shall cease with a simple, yet heartfelt, i love you. (:
the teammates. yanlin, siaomei, amanda. you guys made me realise what it means to go through those hard times tgt. the waking up early to be under the hot sun and yet got scolded w/o a reason. what it means to be disciplined, and what it means to be friends and yet enemy on track fighting for 100m. the times we fought for our rights to go for sea games. the memorable moments when we broke the record. that no matter how far apart and busy we are, i'l never forget the three of you. i hold you three close to my heart alws. (:
the best of the best. johnson. a true 24/7 frien, nv fail to listen to me nag WHOLE DAY. thank you for being supportive, tolerating my super serious, and sometimes aggressive tone. i appreciate you not arguing back even wen i'm in the wrong haha. it goes to show how gentlemanly you can be. no matter how i look at you, you don look like 21, instead 28? overgrown? haha. ok you can now ARGUE BACK! hahaha but i know you wont. and i seriously dono how the hell yr bank account got SO MUCH MONEY wen ya still studying. i cant tink of any time wen i needed you and u're not there. (: ohman, i've known you for 8 damn years. it's freaking fast how time past.. i still rem those times tgt, and i rem ever once we sneaked out of the country to malaysia for 3 days w/o letting our parents know, and our reason given was camp. YAH RIGHT. haha. we were only 15 at that time! haha. (put in small front, in case my sis read my blog. like as tho she cant enlarge haha) i love you to the max. <3
ben, bryan, mich. the three of you are just, AWESOME. we have laughed, sang, screamed, slept, gone crazy, escaped to another country, cos we'r escapist haha, and also shared with each other. i love and i definitely WILL NOT FORGET THE FORFEIT.. it was freaking crazy and i almost died for overdosing of alcohol. whacked 1 full glass of red wine in a few seconds, and it's damn bitter drinking it so fast and i tink i finished almost a bottle all by myself tt day, scary. haha. ben is one idiot wen comes to drinking, haha. ben treat me like a mother. i love you lah, my 24 yrs old boy. me and mel love you loads since you lack of love hahaha. continue to play music for me please! (: and thank you for sharing your life with me; for letting me see the weaker side of you, for trusting in me to not divulge your secrets, for allowing me to find comfort with some who understands how i feel, for being the fun-loving, outgoing, crazy person that you are. we shall continue to be supers. (:
charmaine. i thank you that you have to listen to me nag and complain abt my life tho i know you get bored and tired but you nv complain, instead you say you wanna change table): hahaha. i alws enjoy my sat night with you. you are the ULTIMATE. no words on this blog can express how important you are to me. haha you know it, and i know it. thats all that matters. OBASAN/OCHISAN!!! <3
sharon. eh, dono wad to say but sorry for me being so selfish, i’ve known you for so long, and yet just one prob and it caused us to drifted really badly. I feel extremely bad when i tink back. honestly, im just really thankful to God for sending me, you. thank you for the supper/the company to see doc/hangout and the great support in track. thank you for the lovely person that you are. <3
the kakis, huilee, shuzhen, genesia, meiting. i missed being in ite, only because of you people. and i'm so glad to have found you guys. (: really. grouping with you guys during assignments, had helped me develop my work ability. haha.. those crazy days with charmaine ashley OHMY.. the coconut bro and coconut sis? all the drawings on the table, PLAYED BADMINTON IN AND OUTSIDE CLASS EVEN WEN THERE IS TCHER , sneaking out of class to go canteen/home, one word to describe.. AMAZING!!! hahaha. and not to mention our ability to bullshit random ideas to disturbed mr fong, and two other lecturer i cant rem.. heh. (:
mel the hot babe. i seriously thank you for everything you do to make me smile even though ure not sin, but tt doesnt mean we drift, we webcam, we msg to keep in contact. thanks so much for the postcard and pressie(: i didnt know you know my full add and i was shocked to received the gifts. you nv fail to remind me that life is like a rollar coaster. yes it is, a non-stop three-sixty ride haha. i feel like hugging you now. mel you just rox. (:
oh man.. i realised ive got too many to mention.. ok.. a few more..
the gorgeouses. xiangting, huanx, fenz, tingz, val. i’d say i’m thankful for you bunch of babes who have made catching up a wonderful thing to do. i started clubbing cos of you guys haha. though we’re all going to different places (like, real far away), i know i can still count on you all for a good gathering. xiangting, i totally missed those times in year 1. (: ohman. like i see you everyday and shared everything, how beautiful it used to be. i still rem the first day of ite life. me, you and val.. trying out our new uniform.. HAHA. huanx, thank you for sharing yr love life with me and you inspired me so much. you're damn smart btw! haha.. goooooo far! (:
jamie. you rock! haha.. time passes damn fast and we msg for continuously 4 yrs w/o going out but only see you at trng. thanks for sharing with me yr secrets and let me have the chance to give you advise. <3
shereen, alicia, terrance, vanessa. i do enjoy the time spend tgt with you guys, especially clubbing. and terr definitely go crazy wen he gets drunk. i mean REALY CRAZY hahaha. shereen, thanks for sharing with me yr life. and i thank you for the support in track and nv fail to msg me wen i'm away for competitons. i do appreciated it so much. i dono why! when i tink of you, i just feel like crying but anw, thank you! i love you. (:
to aut classmates, guo pei, bernice, khai leng, dipna. i thank you for the help in projects and helping me to keep set of notes for me when i'm not in class. (:
This was an uber long shout out. actually got many many more people more i wanna thank, and oh my gosh, i dont think i’ve typed so much in an entry before. but i still consider this short, cos there are just too many things about these people to be written (: and i cant possibly do it all here or my fingers might just break. alright, i absolutely need to get some sleep soon, i should get my eyeshut now instead, lest i die of lack of sleep. haha. i'm off. goodnight.
