♥ Monday, October 13, 10/13/2008
Dumbshit.I'm going to score low.. really low. I stared at the paper n really felt dumb. It was so freaking tough. Plus all the notes seem TOO MUCH for me to rem them all and i was so slow in thought processing. EXREMELY SLOW LIKE A 'TORTOISE.' Not that i can't write fast, but i really have no idea what to write. And what came out, was worse than shit. The more i think of what i wrote, the more ridiculous it sounds. BIOLOGY/ANATOMY as forms of study is really NOT my forte. I'm very sure this damn course is harder den poly exams la.. freaking despressing. I should have gone to RP.
I pity the person who needs to read my paper. I hope he get so frustrated, crush it up n plsssss DON'T FAIL ME PLS. I hope the other modules will miraculously score at least 'B.' MIRACULOUSLY. Dare not expect more this sem.It's so depressing to have ANATOMY pp on the first day. It just strewed.3 more to go..This is for 'YOU'I always think such inability to control temper is bad n be the neutral party. But in this scenario.. i really can't see myself as neutral. My heart has already taken sides.. n i don't hide it. I hope YOU learnt a lesson that is essential if YOU does want to progress better on in the future. But such things are not easily learnt.As for now... it will be difficult to gain our respect and trust.For i totally understand how another echoed back that once the trust is breached, it is almost impossible for us to bring it back to a higher level. I just hope reputation is not sacrificed. Usually i just sleep and forget abt it. haha.. ok i won't forget everything.. cos the emotion is something that will be engraved. But i wont let it bother me. YOU are not worth my attention. I have better things to attend to. But if YOU hinders.. i might be that next volcano.
